Thursday, April 22, 2010

Going Through Hard Times...

I usually don't post too much info on my family. I am a private person and like to keep things simple. But I need to ask that if you are a Christian and believe in Jesus Christ,to please pray for my family and oldest son,Calin. I know what the power of praying can do.
I don't feel too comfortable sharing all the details....and that's not really important anyways....God knows our needs and prayers anyways.....just knowing other believer's that are willing to give a moment of time to say prayers for my son and our family,is what I really need at this moment. As a mom,there comes a time when you must let go and let your babies grow up and take responsibility of there own life.This has proven to be a difficult time for me. My son is 17......he's been dealing with major depression and some bulling at his school and always been a little immature for his age. He's been dealing with this for at least 3 years....along with some other various problems. I had no idea that he was feeling suicidal and absolutely zero self esteem and worth! My heart breaks for him in a way I know all mother's feel when you see your child in such a desperate state. He's been in and out of counseling since he was 5 years old. Was diagnosed with ADD when he was little....now they think he might be Bi-Polar or Aspergers Syndrome. He will get a psychological evaluation in May. This will help us learn how to deal with things a little better and how to treat him. I just ask for anyone who is willing to please pray for him and us.....things have been steadily getting worse the older he is getting......I'm running out of time,since he will soon be an adult in the eyes of the law and society. I will keep you posted and up to date once we know more. I thank you in advance because I have no prayers left within me....but I know The Holy Spirit Prays for me when I can't or don't know the words to say. I'm trying to stay strong....but feel so weak at times.
Many Blessings,
Holley

PS- I feel very vulnerable in telling such private family details....but like I said,prayer can be a valuable tool.....and we certainly need all the prayers we can get right now!! thanks so much!!

9 comments:

jengd said...

I'm not a praying person but I'm definitely thinking of you! Hang in there and best to your son! High school can be a miserable time but it gets better!

Rhonda Miller said...

I will keep you, your son and your family in my thoughts and prayers. I hope all goes well.

Jeanne said...

I'll keep you and your family in my prayers.

Cheryl said...

Dear Holley...I Know all too well what you are going through. My son was also diagnosed with ADHD, Asperger's Syndrome, and Sensory Processing Disorder-they all go hand in hand. I'd love to offer you some words of encouragement but I'd like for you to leave me your email or email me at clkreider@bellsouth.net so that we can chat privately. Just know this...AS is NOT the devastating diagnosis that it does "feel" like at first mention. I have an excellent article that details what a parent goes through and what I imagine you are feeling. "KNOWING" is the gift because once you "KNOW" the diagnosis you can begin to "FIGHT" it-no matter that your son is 17...acknowledging the "difference and isolation" he feels is 1/2 the battle -putting a name to it will probably relieve some of his suffering in and of itself! I'm keeping you and your family and son in my prayers -please email me!

Trinity Paper Arts said...

Holley, My prayers are with your son, you, and your entire family. I know you are in the "Abyss" right now, but God is present there as well and is with you. It may be dark and you can't see Him, but He is there with you, as He has been since before you were born. Please do let us know as things get better. Blessings, Louise

helloholley said...

Thank you ladies for all your thoughts and prayers!! They really mean alot......being women I know you will understand that I have been sooo emotional lately!! I have been unable to think,pray or really FEEL.....like I've been in a fog of some sort.....really numb. So I just wanted you to know that your words of encouragement makes me feel so much better.

God Bless you and your families!!

Holley

rain said...

holley-my heart goes out to you-one of my daughters has some similar problems-which have not been diagnosed. A mothers love never stops and is really tough-you can and will survive this-and now that you have asked for help from others-as difficult as it was-you will get the support you need. My prayers are with you daily. Fondly, Lorraine

Susan said...

Holley, you and your son will be in my prayers and thoughts...Please visit my blog, and see the post about VENTING ( also about my son) but he is now 24 and out on his own. But the worrying continues. I've been asking God to walk with him, and make him to see k out the father for years. Alas my prayers are still not answered, i hope for a more positive outcome for your son.
Susan

helloholley said...

Thank you ladies....it means so much to know I have people praying for him and us!! God Bless!